Tuesday, December 04, 2007

My song to God (stolen from switchfoot)

Let that be enough - Switchfoot

Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
Cause I feel so defeated
And I’m feeling alone
And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I’m a plane in the sunset
With no where to land
And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sandcastles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

It’s my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this thursday
Twenty-two years ago
And I feel stuck watching history repeating
Oh am I just a kid who knows he’s needy?

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Let your love

Let your love be strong, and I don't care what goes down.
Let your love be strong enough to weather through the thunder cloud
Fury and thunder clap like stealing the fire from your eyes
All of my world hanging on your love...

Let it start tonight
When my world explodes, when my stars touch the ground
Falling down like broken satellites
All of my world resting on your love.

Let your love be strong - Switchfoot

Monday, August 20, 2007

At a Flight of the Conchords Band photo shoot. (on episode 6 of their TV series)
"germaine, you look depressed, smile." - Murray (band manager)
"I'm supposed to I'm in a band." - Germaine
yus. Go FOTC!
rocks my socks.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Life and love and why - switchfoot.

Life and love and why
Child adult then die
All of your hoping and all of your searching for what?
Ask me for what am I living and what gives me strength that i'm willing to die for

Take away from me this monstrosity
'Cause my futile thinking's not gonna solve nothing tonight
Ask me for what am I living and what gives me strength that I’m willing to die for

Could it be this?
Could it be bliss?
Could it be all that I ever had missed?
Could it be true?
Can life be new?
And can I be used?
Can I be used?

Give me a reason for life and for death
And a reason for drowning while I hold my breath
Something to laugh at a reason to cry
With everyone hopeless and hoping for something to hope for
Yeah, with something to hope for

Could it be true?
Can life be new?
Could it be all that I am is in You?
Could it be this?
Could it be bliss?
Can it be You?
Can it be You?

Sure, this isn't the best switchfoot song ever, musically or lyrically. But i think it's pretty good.
And i do think the lyrics touch on an issue which is not spoken about often enough, our search for purpose.

I love the line 'Could it be all that I am is in You?'

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

I just saw something at Bible college which got me thinking..

they have a memorial grove 'martyr's grove' dedicated to 5 BCNZ (bible college of NZ) graduates who have died at the hands of others,while actively serving God on the overseas mission field.

Just got me thinking a little bit about martyrdom..

what would it be like to be put in a situation where it was Jesus or death?

How could you possibly make the choice to make the ultimate sacrifice in the name of Jesus Christ?

But, on the other hand.

How could you not?!

He is the lord, who reigns forever.

He is the one that has saved this world from its wretched state, brought us out of the pit that we were helplessly stuck in.

He is the one who gave his life.

The least that we can do is give our lives as living sacrifices.

And if this results in death, so be it.

I'd like to think that were i put in a situation where I had to make that ultimate sacrifice, i would choose death, over life knowing that I'd as good as trampled on the saviour who gave his life for me.

But would I:

If I can't even commit my days to him?

If I can't even commit my hours to him?

If I refuse to listen to his commands?

If I can't even follow in his way?

If I struggle to follow his plan?

If I can't even spend 20 mins a day drawing close to him?

If I can't hear his voice? If I'm not even listening?

Then how could I possibly make this ultimate sacrifice.

Hebrews 12:25See to it that you do not refuse him who speaks. If they did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, how much less will we, if we turn away from him who warns us from heaven? At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, "Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens."The words "once more" indicate the removing of what can be shaken—that is, created things—so that what cannot be shaken may remain.
Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our "God is a consuming fire."


So my challange to myself... and to you if you choose to take it is to try to commit every day to Him.

Every hour.

Every minute.

Every second.

Do it!

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Backstreet Boys - Inconsolable [FULL]

Yep. So backstreet boys are back in action.
I actually really like this song :D
Woohoo...

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Xtend 07.. best week of my life!

I got back on saturday night at mid-night from what has to be one of the best weeks of my life !!

I learnt so much about God at this camp called Xtend (its a baptist youth camp held once a year, in tauranga!)

Things i learnt:

- Even though I thought that I'd stopped believing lies about myself, I still do, and I need to renounce those, and replace them with the truth that God wants to speak into my life.

- It is sooo important that you are a real, honest + open person, so that people don't get the wrong idea about who you are. It's sad, but true, that we act differently around different people, we shouldn't be afraid to let people see who we really are!

- Nothing that we ever do is worthy of Jesus. When we feel unworthy of God's love, its because we are! But only through JESUS! He makes us worthy, so when God looks at us, he sees something pure and blameless.

- The Bible is the living, active word of God, which needs to be meditated, chewed, eaten, consumed.

- If you think you can't hear God's voice are you listening?! Because you can't recognise a voice that you never hear. So spending time with God (in prayer + in listening) regularly is hugely important in order to actually be able to hear God's guidance for your life.

So yeah, that's pretty much what I learnt! And probably some other stuff too.

But it was so awesome spending time worshipping God with others, and seeing people support each other when their friends were suffering, rejoicing with one another, responding to God and actively seeking God

INCREDIBLE!

If you ever get the chance to go, I highly recommend it!

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Very special song..

Must have done something right - Relient K

We should get jerseys cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine
Cause your out of my league
And I know that it’s so cliche
To tell you that everyday
Spent with you is the new best day of my life
Everyone watching us just turns away disgust
This jealousy they can see that we’ve got it going on

And I’m racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know you’re more to me than what I know how say
Your okay with the way this is going to be
Cause this is going to be, the best thing we’ve ever seen

If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day, and you re-arranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right,
I must have done something right

And maybe I’m just lucky cause it’s hard to believe
Believe that somebody like you, end up with someone like me

And I know that it’s so cliche
To talk about you this way
But I’ll push all my inhibitions aside
It’s so very obvious to every one watching us
That we have got something real good goin on

And I’m racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know you’re more to me than what I know how say
Your okay with the way this is going to be
Cause this is going to be, the best thing we’ve ever seen

This song is truly great :D

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Masquerade..

meeks, me, chloe
its ha-uge
she is a strange woman that one.. no, the other one :P
le masque.


Masquerade.. paper faces on parade!




Fantastic, masqeurade formal dinner at church :D


was great fun.


spent the afternoon making masks/beautifying.




then dinner :D




then dancing like mad :D




Saturday, June 23, 2007

Sometimes I wonder...

if God's the only one who thinks I'm beautiful.

And even that doesn't help much..


Don't comment on what I've said. i just wanted to complain.

bye

Thursday, May 31, 2007

stolen from anchor and braille's blog:

when a scorpion stings your hand.
there once was a hindu holy man who saw a scorpion floundering around in the water. he decided to save it by stretching out his finger. but the scorpion stung him. the man still tried to get the scorpion out of the water, but the scorpion stung him again. a man nearby told him to stop saving the scorpion that kept stinging him. but the holy man said, "it is the nature of the scorpion to sting. it is my nature my love. why should i give up my nature to love just because it is the nature of the scorpion to sting?"it should be our nature to love regardless of who we are, regardless of what has been done to us. its hard. i know. trust me. people are always going to sting you. they are going to rip into your character. they are going to be the ones in the platform telling you that your views are wrong. they are going to be in the pulpits pointing fingers in judgement. they are going to be the ones who hold your whole race responsible for the actions of one person's actions.but that doesn't give you the right to despise; for hate for those who hate is still hate. in spite of those who may sting you remain in what you know to be your nature. love.

end quote.

this sooo fully applies to God too.
isn't that cool.

anyone who hasn't heard of anchor and braille, they should have.
it's stephen christian's (anberlin frontman/leadsinger) solo project.
it's incredible.

www.myspace.com/woodwaterrecords

www.myspace.com/anchorandbraille

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

what hurts the most.

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

Rascal flatts. - What hurts the most

Monday, May 21, 2007



has any one else seen this series of brilliant! cards.
they are brilliant!
like emo spiderman.
in fact the whole spiderman movie. brilliant. just brilliant. * sweeps fringe over forehead while pouting *
by brilliant i mean, that you can not keep a straight face or take it seriously because it's just so funny.
no matter if it's meant to be or not.
like my reading story today (thanks to sam's strange/sick? mind)
i could only keep a straight face wen reading it to a 3 and a half year old.
or the quote "run into a friend in the street"
i was going to add a slightly insensitive equation here. but then decided not to.
i could do some hand motions.
but you wouldn't see them
so i give up.
that is also brilliant.

refuse to be put in a basket.

is brilliantly ambiguous.

which is a brilliantly large word (Although not funny, maybe the normal definition of brilliant applies here).

is anyone else confused?

I would just like to ask this simple question for your comments: Is it ever possible to seperate your perception of a certain 'truth' from the truth itself.
could you ever know the 'truth' of something without your perception getting in the way?
contrast how you can know 'love' or how you can know 'how a car works'.
interesting isn't it.
would be keen to hear your thoughts.
my horse is pretty too.
prettier than yours.

and you are brilliant.

BRILLIANT!
don't worry. i don't actually think the question is simple.


i am being cheeky/annoying.
from time to time this is allowable.

Monday, March 19, 2007

My meta-narratively shaped chemical romance

"Son when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, beaten and the damned"

doesn't that just make you think of jesus... it does for me anyway

and trust me, i had plenty of time to think about it in the 36 hours that this song was stuck on my head!

oooh dear

Sunday, March 18, 2007

hugs all round

Chasing sheepies....
Soooooo purdy

hugs all round
by the way, this is my horse
haha
The product of a days hard lectures....

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

an earthquake...

and i didn't even feel it

how sad

in other news,

i have a horse!

time for some sanity sleep... see ya

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Mountaintop Addiction

It's easy to get addicted to the mountaintop experiences of God - the camps, the spiritual highs
This is my pondering on the topic...

Mountaintop Addiction

Mountaintop firelight
Fan the flame in my soul
Now I know he’s alive
And I’ll run by his side

Easy come, easy go
Not that way, I will grow
Through the pain, through the fight
Though nothing goes right

When I can’t feel a thing
Everything’s gone, There’s a hope
Still alive, I know deep inside
That its worth holding on

Through nothing at all
When everything’s gone
No trace, no shadow
Played up on the wall

Still I hold on
Still I hold on

Through the flood, through the fire
Through the desert, the plain
Till the numbness subsides
I can feel him again

Valleys of daylight
Dull warming glow
The flame in my soul
Still alight, heart afloat
I know my redeemer
Is with me still now
As I walk by his side

I’ll hold on
I’ll hold on

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

When I say..

When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I'm clean living" I'm whispering "I was lost" Now I'm found and I'm forgiven.

When I say... "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say.... "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need HIS strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say.... "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are far too visible but, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian" I"m not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow.

I wish more people would have this humbler view of our christianity, although it's of course so easier to slip into 'holier than thou' thinking...

wat are your views?

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Me on molly...
Peace...

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Some photos from horse camp...

Me climbing hill on Lady Bug
Three of the (many) random random peoples at camp... haha Sam, Jesh and Beth ...
Aren't we all so hot... actually it was rather (Rach, Me, Katie, Alex, Kat and Betty in the front)
Pretty morning... J-dog's photo
Greased lightning... what more can i say!