an earthquake...

and i didn't even feel it

how sad

in other news,

i have a horse!

time for some sanity sleep... see ya

Mountaintop Addiction

It's easy to get addicted to the mountaintop experiences of God - the camps, the spiritual highs
This is my pondering on the topic...

Mountaintop Addiction

Mountaintop firelight
Fan the flame in my soul
Now I know he’s alive
And I’ll run by his side

Easy come, easy go
Not that way, I will grow
Through the pain, through the fight
Though nothing goes right

When I can’t feel a thing
Everything’s gone, There’s a hope
Still alive, I know deep inside
That its worth holding on

Through nothing at all
When everything’s gone
No trace, no shadow
Played up on the wall

Still I hold on
Still I hold on

Through the flood, through the fire
Through the desert, the plain
Till the numbness subsides
I can feel him again

Valleys of daylight
Dull warming glow
The flame in my soul
Still alight, heart afloat
I know my redeemer
Is with me still now
As I walk by his side

I’ll hold on
I’ll hold on

When I say..

When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I'm clean living" I'm whispering "I was lost" Now I'm found and I'm forgiven.

When I say... "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say.... "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need HIS strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say.... "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are far too visible but, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian" I"m not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow.

I wish more people would have this humbler view of our christianity, although it's of course so easier to slip into 'holier than thou' thinking...

wat are your views?

Me on molly...
Peace...

Some photos from horse camp...

Me climbing hill on Lady Bug
Three of the (many) random random peoples at camp... haha Sam, Jesh and Beth ...
Aren't we all so hot... actually it was rather (Rach, Me, Katie, Alex, Kat and Betty in the front)
Pretty morning... J-dog's photo
Greased lightning... what more can i say!

Um... a post... mmm... wat to say....

eerrrrrr

ummmmm

not like it matters... no one reads this anyway.

How about I say: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Now...

Well, life is good... i'm about to leave 2mrw for horse camp!

And then i'm back for a week - working all week!

And then i leave for another horse camp! This time I'm a leader at a little (y7-9) girls horse camp which will be fun!

Then parachute...

Then i work for 3 weeks before uni starts again!

That's life.

So... Happy New Year!

the thief

Your eyes are full, full of the future of us
The air changes as you look across at me in that wondering way
it is as if I knew you before we spoke
Do our hearts know something we don't?
Conspiring, converging without giving us any say

You sing me to sleep, talk down my walls
Look through my windows as I wait
You could be the thief I give the key to

You're ruining me with secrets and gestures and looks
With sonnets in second-hand books
Playing the chords in me nobody knew how to play

You sing me to sleep, talk down my walls
Look through my windows as I wait
You could be the thief I give the key to
It fits in your hand like the water in rain
It unlocks our two different selves and shows we are the same
Rather than wait til I put me out for the taking
You're breaking
You're breaking into my heart... and I'm letting you

Your eyes are full, full of the future of us.

Ah Brooke Fraser and a guitar... one of my favourite sounds!

This gorgeous song of hers can speak for itself....

I'ts been a month and a day... did you miss me?
Bet you didn't...
Well the reason that I've been so slack at updating lately is because life has just been sooo freakily stressful! Uni has been hectic, and i had a piano exam on wednesday, and a few stressful weeks at work to add to it all!
Anyway, it's over now!
My piano exam went ok... altho i forgot easy scales, which sucks.
Uni is finished!!! I survived first year uni!
And work... well got lots to do still, but oh well.


Here's some lyrics that kind of express a very common situation in christians, and i guess kind of describes the place that I have been in lately, and am trying to get out of!

Be my Escape - Relient K

I'm giving up on giving up slowly
I'm blending in, so you won't even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate

This one last bullet you mention
Is my one last shot at redemption
Coz I know to live you must give your life away

I've been housing all this doubt, and insecurity
I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me

And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm going because

Oh, I gotta get out of here,
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
Oh, I gotta get out of here,
And i'm begging you, i'm begging you, i'm begging you
to be my escape

I've given up on doing this alone now
I have failed, and I'm ready to be shown how
You've shown me the way, I'm trying to get there

And this life sentence that I'm serving
I admit that I'm every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

I've been housing all this doubt, and insecurity
I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me

And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm going because

Oh, I gotta get out of here,
I'm afraid that this complacency, is something I can't shake
Oh, I gotta get out of here,
And i'm begging you, i'm begging you, i'm begging you
to be my escape

I am a hostage, to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess of me
And all I'm asking is for you to do, what you can with me
But I can't ask you to give what you already gave

I've been housing all this doubt, and insecurity
I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me

And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to goI promise I'm going because

Oh, I gotta get out of here,I'm stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistake
Oh, I gotta get out of here,
And i'm begging you, i'm begging you, i'm begging youto be my escape

I fought you for so long, I should have let you win
Oh, how we regret those things we do
All I was trying to do was save my own skin
Oh, but so were you,
So were you

Top 10...

Bad pick up lines.. except not 'pick-up' in the bad sense of the word.... 'pick-up' in the sense of getting a girl to notice you...

anyway here goes

sorry me and monique came up with these... and it's sad the number of these that came out of things i said to her brother haha

1. Hey you're pigeon toed

2. You have a wart on your elbow *in a creepy french accent*

3. IT's not what's on your head that attracts me to you, it's whats in it.

4. you're like a flash of lightning, but not as bright

5. My grandma and her friends were looking at photos of you the other day and were amazed at how good looking you've become

6. I didn't mean to play footsies with you

7. You look like your mum/dad

8. Do I look good in your sisters hat?

9. Light travels faster than sound

10. You're so smart

i apologise profusely (hehe i love that word...) i wrote another post on paper... and was saving it until i could be bothered typing it up and now i've lost it!!!

sorry... you'll have to survive until i find it :D

bye for now

i'm not tired, really

woweee

i am so tired

thus, this post is boring

night night

Isn't this awesome...

wow, teacher's college is so sweet at the moment... this unit is one of those one's that make people think that teacher's college is just a piece of cake...when it's not
it's actually a piece of pie.

anyways, i get to tell one of my favourite childhood stories on monday! so that should be good

haha me and hot things... food... drinks ... are a really bad combination
just ask sam to explain! :P

catcha later....

watch this space... a really juicy post coming soon!

Well, hey there.... here's a great site of musical mavelry!!!
They send you free downloads and stuff.... it's very very exciting!
It's funny, this week i got sent a free download from a little kiwi band... who is making a name for themselves in america 'Detour 180' quite cool i must say
although my 2nd cousin's not in the band anymore... so there goes my claim to fame!
anyways, heres a link
http://www.hearitfirst.com




























In reality, I'm only doing this to win a competition... but all of the above is completely true!!!!

RAAAAR!!!

i got attacked by a killer spider today

only it turned out it was a wasp

thank goodness it was a cold, sleepy wasp who didn't get aggravated by my:

galloping across the backyard to get dad to save my life
spasmodic spasming
writhing
and yell[ow]ing 'GET IT OFF, GET IT OFF!'

twas fun

specially when my darling daddy saved my life.....

that was the best part

Lessons from the Garden

Well i was gardening today... for the second time this week!!!!

Anyway today it was my garden i was demolishing and rebuilding... was kinda fun except for the time constraints....

I was thinking about weeds... no not WEED! weeds

and i was thinking, 'how come they are weeds, how are they any different to the rest of the plants'

and i realised ' we call them weeds because the spread easily and don't have pretty flowers'

which is pretty much the essence of it.

Suddenly i became all philosophical (OOOOO big word) and was thinking about life... and weeds...

the people 'weeds' in life are the outcasts, the ones who are different from us, the ones who 'don't have pretty flowers' and the get pulled out of normal society and chucked in the dump... or the gutter as the case may be.

Isn't that Sad! :(

Why? just because they are different from us

let's be nice (as much as i hate that word) and kind people and be friendly towards people who are different from us

they are what makes the world an interesting place

Can i break the spell...

...of the typical.

A very cool song i found today 'typical' by mute math, a very cool band!

check them out

www.purevolume.com/mutemath

fantastic....

pizza....

pizza.... an interesting topic to ponder, at the best of times... why does the topping always fall off?????? WHY? WHY????????

isn't the cheese supposed to stick it on... and the tomato sauce...

hmmm

and OSTRICHES DON'T LIVE IN HOLES!

hey everyone... i just remembered a very funny thing that happened on saturday night... i went bowling

HAHAHAHAH

stop laughing, that wasn't the joke!

well, it was a part of it, i went bowling and in the process of being very focussed with forward motion, of both myself and the bowling ball... i managed to, at the height of my backwards swing... drop the ball!!!!!

Yes sirreeee that's right, I dropped a bowling ball backwards in the process of trying to put the bowling down the lane ....

and i just learnt a new pick up line... 'you haven't lived in New Zealand your whole life, have you? '

thanx to meeks squeeks...

october...

wow, my first post for october... this year has flown by, although i must say that this has been one of my best years thanx to my masters mates... love you guys!
Twas a mint storm today one of the lightning strikes was so close i only got to one-higelty... before it struck! Pretty cool...

Australia has the meanest electrical storms... when i lived in Brisbane we had some amazing tropical lightning storms... they'd make the whole house shake hardcore and you'd get kind of scared..... but they were fun all the same.

Then there was the time when we were out driving and it was overcast (but not raining) and all of a sudden it poured so hard dad couldn't see the road at all and had to slowly and carefully pull into a side street... twas an experience.

Well, hope october sees you all well and happy

Signing out for the night

Oh Mr Sun!

I apologise profusely if i have gotten annoying i-can't-believe-i-remember-that barney songs stuck on your head.... but isn't it fantastic that the sun came out!

It's soooo nice... except for when i am sitting in front of the computer hurting my eyes in the coldest part of the house so i can get my assignment done so i can have a holiday. * breaths*

well, big news! I handed it in!!!!! YAY like almost 2 weeks early! (i'm not a geek really!)

and i got kutless' new CD hearts of the innocent - from Julie for my birthday with the money she gave me!

It's fantastic.......

yay.... im' happy

so, how are you? comment please!